Personality Test - Report

My Personality

Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	6
Openness to Experience	43
Agreeableness	14
Conscientiousness	18

You feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much, however you are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans.


Neuroticism

Anxiety	96
Anger	98
Depression	99
Self-Consciousness	90
Immoderation	81
Vulnerability	94

You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

Extraversion

Friendliness	3
Gregariousness	1
Assertiveness	13
Activity Level	53
Excitement-Seeking	15
Cheerfulness	50

People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You have a generally cheerful disposition.

Openness to Experience

Imagination	64
Artistic Interests	89
Emotionality	70
Adventurousness	7
Intellect	27
Liberalism	29

You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You have good access to and awareness of your own feelings. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition.

Agreeableness

Trust	67
Morality	45
Altruism	39
Cooperation	0
Modesty	60
Sympathy	1

You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. There are times when you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary, however you are mostly candid, frank and sincere. People find it moderately easy to relate to you. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

Conscientiousness

Self-Efficacy	65
Orderliness	75
Dutifulness	3
Achievement-Striving	0
Self-Discipline	23
Cautiousness	13

You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. You are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. You find yourself procrastinating and show poor follow-through on tasks. Often you fail to complete tasks - even tasks that you want very much to complete. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives.

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Red Envelope

Did you put your red envelope in the mail? If you dont know what I'm talking about, look at this: http://www.redenvelopeproject.org/

Please send your envelope today!!

Cross or Not

So there I was, sitting in that same car again...but with different people. How did I get here with them.

I'm sitting in the drivers seat. I start the car and pull forward. Not so bad, I can do this. But why am I so worried?

The scenery that I'm passing is new to me. Am I going a different route this time?

The other two people in the car are speaking to one another but not to me, its like they don't even know I'm there in the car with them. But they have to know, I mean come on....I'm the one driving.

The worry that I had been feeling becomes greater. I'm afraid, but don't know why. I need to turn the car around but I don't.

I suddenly find that I know where I am at. I've been here before. A coldness comes over me.

I round the curve and that's when I see it.

That old wooden bridge. Its the only way to pass over that rushing water below.

I want to turn around but I cant. Its like I'm being pulled.

I stop the car before actually crossing.

I sit and stare at what is before me. Do I cross and take the chance of the bridge collapsing under the weight of my car. Or do I just sit here and wait....forever.

I'm cold and shaking and I can imagine what will happen when I cross over.

The wood will creek and then break...then we and the car will fall down below. I know it will happen. I can feel it.

I start to pull forward, knowing my fate.

Update

Just an update...The Dogs that needed home at the Malvern Shelter, where all adopted. Way to go people!

Hate

Its Monday. I hate Mondays.
I always toss and turn the night before and don't get any sleep and then I spend most of Monday in a eyes half open kind of way.
Its also the start of a new work week...o goody, work.
I hate work too, by the way.

Save a Life!

The Malvern Animal Shelter is closing until a new animal control officer is hired. We have until this weekend to get as many animals adopted as possible. There are alot of nice animals available. There will be an adoption fair from 3-5 on Saturday. Monday the remaining dogs will be euthanized. I am not trying to guilt anyone into taking an animal in to save its life, however I want this forward to people that might be interested in adding to their family.Adoption is free, however you must be 18 to adopt and agree to have the animal altered within 30 days. A reduced cost voucher is available. Adoptions are free. Feel free to email me if interested in more information. The shelter is located on Canine Drive.

Driving directions to 2625 Canine Rd, Malvern, AR 72104
25.2 mi – about 31 mins
4121 Scott Salem Rd
Benton, AR 72019
1.
Head east on Foxrun/Scott Salem Rd toward Salem Rd
253 ft
2.
Turn right at Salem Rd
0.1 mi
3.
Turn left at AR-5
0.3 mi
4.
Turn right at Alcoa Rd
0.3 mi
5.
Take the ramp to Frontage Rd/I-30
0.1 mi
6.
Turn right at Frontage Rd/I-30
Continue to follow I-30
0.3 mi
7.
Take the ramp on the left onto I-30 W/US-67 S/US-70 W
6.5 mi
8.
Take exit 114 for US-67
0.2 mi
9.
Slight left at AR-229/US-67
Continue to follow US-67
17.2 mi
10.
Turn left at Pine Bluff St
0.2 mi
11.
Turn left at Canine Rd
Destination will be on the right
144 ft
2625 Canine Rd
Malvern, AR 72104

My doggie, Bella (the poodle in the photo) came from a shelter. I saved a life, will you?

Bored

Here is something you can do if your bored. http://www.freerice.com/index.php

Etsy

I have decided to join Etsy. Its a website where you can post and sell things that you have made. "Homemade" items.
So I signed up, made my page and added one thing to sell. I need to get busy and make more stuff to put on there. Go take a look: http://www.etsy.com/shop.php?user_id=7118407

Gas Problems

O the morning I have had so far!
I left home early this morning because I had to get gas...or I would have never made it to work. (I seem to live life on the edge by not getting gas until the very last second)
Anyways....I passed one gas station so I could go to another. Well I get out, put my card in and the little screen asked for my zip code...OK not a problem. So I typed it in..and the little thing read back to me...."to many numbers." WHAT THE CRAP! So I decided to try again, same thing happened again. So then I tried using another zip code (our zip code was changed). Still the same thing. WHAT! I put in 5 numbers, that's not to many! Well needless to say, I left.
I drove back to the gas station that I had passed. I stick my card in...it reads "insert card" so I did...same thing it reads again. After the third time I gave up and decided to walk inside the station. She runs my card and then I walk back out to pump the gas. And surprise! Still no gas. It wont pump..nothing is happening. I walk back inside...the lady is stocking shelves. I say to her...hey the gas pump isn't working. "O I forgot to push the button", she says. NICE!
I finally got gas. Sure did take a lot of trouble to get it.
I hate having to get gas!!

Something I do Well

"What is something you do well?"

I think the thing I do well most is being a sister. I take the job very seriously.
I am and will be there for my two Brothers and one Sister anytime without fail. They need a ride, a babysitter, money, a place to stay, someone to talk to, and if they need someone to listen. I don't judge them, I stand beside them. If I don't like a decision they have made, I let them know but I will also let them learn from their mistakes and not say, I told you so.
When they hurt, I hurt. We are all close and open with each other. As we should be.
I am there to clap and give prise when they do well. And let them be when they need space.
I love them for who they are. I love them unconditional.

Enraged

I have sitting here and clicking on "Next Blog" and reading random blogs. And I'm shocked and pissed off at this one I saw :http://bulimiablogger.blogspot.com/2008/11/bulimia-tips.html

It makes me sick! Why the heck would someone post tips? I mean COME ON!! I'm really upset over this.

Don't write tips! Do not tell people how to do this horrible thing that we do to ourselves. You should be ashamed. Do you want other people to go through this. I know I don't. I wouldn't wish this on anybody.

I want my control back. I want to be able to eat and not immediately think, "OMG I have to get rid of this now" It controls my life and I want that control back.

But posting tips and giving people ideas is absurd. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

Just because "ITS" destroying your life doesn't mean you need to aid in helping "IT" destroy another life.

25 Things

"25 things you want to do in your life"

1. Go to school
2. Become a school teacher
3. Be a parent
4. Travel
5. Be "well"
6. Like me for me
7. Write a book
8. Learn how to save money
9. Live life to the fullest
10. Learn how to forgive
11. Go to Disney World again
12. Move into a house
13. Be a better wife
14. Be a better friend
15. Learn to think before I speak
16. Figure out Adobe Photo
17. Be closer to God
18. Want to own a book store
19. Go on another cruise
20. Not be afraid
21. Worry less
22. Be more open to meeting new people
23. Make my parents proud
24. Help shut down puppy mills
25. Learn how to use my inside voice

Sleepy

I'm soooo sleepy! I stayed up and watched Twilight with my Sister last night...should have went on to bed...but I really really wanted to watch it. So today I'm paying the prices...having to fight with my eyes to keep them open.

My Sister is spending some time with me this week. She is on Spring Break. I'm sure she would have much rather went somewhere.

Something is wrong with my phone so I couldn't get online at home. Stupid phone. I go through phones so fast.

Went to church yesterday morning. Haven't been in a while and decided that I was going to go. Then I made a phone call....and almost decided n0t to go. I went anyways.

I'm thinking about watching children in my home. I already know of 3 children that would stay at my house. I'm going to figure out how much I would make and the let the Husband know.
The only thing about doing that is, what if I get sick...where will these children stay. I would be putting the parents out. Not a good thing since they would be paying me to care for them.
I'm gonna give this a lot of thought.

Did I mention that I sleepy? I so wish I could be curled up in my bed right now. Its supposed to rain later...an even better reason why I should be in bed.

Why?

Here are some things I noticed on my way to work this morning:

Why do people put stuff animals in the back windows of their car? Why? Nobody cares about your stuff animal collection, leave it at home.

Why the heck is the liquor store open at 7:30 am? Never mind, I do know. People get some help.

Why does the sun always blind me in the morning and in the afternoon? Another reason why I prefer rainy days.

Why the heck was that man looking down at the passenger seat instead of on the road this morning? I mean come on, you where on the freeway not the service road...even though that doesn't really matter. Focus man, focus!

Why did that girl keep looking at me through her side mirror? Hey girl the road is in front of you, pay attention.

Why was that one car speeding by everyone on the freeway? Emergency ...maybe. Going to be late for work...probably.

Why wasn't that cop sitting in his usually spot this morning? Maybe he chased someone or better yet he got caught in the long line at the donut shop.

Why didn't that car let that big truck turn so that the lane I was in could start moving? They must have already used their one good deed up for today.

Why was I paying attention to everything around me instead of listening to what Bob was saying on the radio? Because I was busy entertaining myself with the ways of other people's doings.

Ramblings

I'm at home today. Didn't...or rather couldn't go to work today. The car key wont turn and neither will the steering wheel. I hope there is nothing really wrong with it. The dang car is only 3 years old. I've never kept a car this long....I wish for a new one!

I actually needed to go to work today, since I took off last Friday. O well, I'll make the Husband give me some money.

I did get alot accomplished today. I cleaned the front bathroom, the living room and the kitchen. I'll save the laundry room, my bedroom and my bathroom for Saturday.
Its a nice day to be home. Its been raining off and on through out the day. I love rainy days.

A Harps just opened up not a block from my house. Awesome. Now I can just run in there if I have to pick something up instead of going all the way to Kroger.

I believe that something is wrong with FB. I thought that someone at work blocked me from being able to get on, but now I cant get on it here at home and Mama is having the same problems. I hope they get it fixed soon.

I get to watch the Ellen Show today. I love that show but never get to see it because I'm at work when its on.
I watched LOST last night, still kinda confused. I think I'm gonna stop watching it and just wait for it to come out on DVD.

So EXCITED about Twilight coming out. I reserved my copy way in advance. I prolly would have been stupid if I didn't.
My Brother wants to go to the midnight party for it....we'll see. He is finally reading the books, good for him.
See Twilight is just not for teen girls. ;)

Jess's Topic for Today:

"what would I do today if I hadn’t got of bed and went to work"

I would start by turning off the alarm and the rolling back over, pulling the covers back over my head and snuggled down for some more extra sleep. NICE!

Eventually I would get up, make some coffee, turn on the TV, speak to my dog, and plop down on the couch.

Coffee is done...crawl off the couch and get me a cup...Ouch..burnt my tongue.

Plop back down on the couch and waste lots of time watching the TV until my mind goes numb.

Then eventually I would get up and think....maybe I should take a shower...which I do. A nice long one since on working morning I don't have alot of time.

Get dressed....find some lunch.

Leave the house, maybe go to a flea market or Hobby Lobby.

Come back home...read while the TV is on for awhile then get up and make supper.

What a nice day.

FAIL

What in the world. Why the heck did Obama appear on the Night Show for? Umm shouldn't he be doing more important things. I mean COME ON! Just so you know, Obama you are not a celebrity, you are the President.

"As much as President Obama would like to be a man of the people, a 'regular guy,' he's not anymore. . . . Doing Jay Leno lessens the stature of the office." -TINA DAUNT
(I agree)

I wonder what show he will show up on next? Probably Oprah.

Another reason I'm glad that I didn't vote for him.

Green

A little over an hour left, then I get to go HOME! All I had to do today was scan. Scanning papers all day....no fun.

Today I spent most of the time here on Blogspot. There are really some interesting and creative people in the world. Reading some of the blogs...makes me want to go out and create stuff (scary)and travel the world (would need someone to go with me....bad at directions and would get lost).

The fist thing I was asked this morning was, "where is your green." Guess he thought he was going to pinch me...but I do have my green on. Little four leaf clovers on my socks. I didn't feel the need to wear a green shirt...also I don't even own a green shirt.

Tried to get on FB today...and no such luck. My BF couldn't get on hers either. I guess maybe now I can stand around and talk about people (like the person who blocked my FB) cause now I have more extra time. Hmmmm...who should I talk about first........

Something I just saw that makes me mad.....A guy who works here, just walked by carrying the trash from the break room. I asked him why he was doing that and he just shrugged his shoulders. Ummm...Don't they have someone that comes by Tuesday nights and cleans.....yes.

I hope that agency finds me a new job. (If anyone from work happens to come across this...o well. For you see, I NEED a BETTER paying job.) I secretly wish that the next job I have does not mean me answering phones.

For some reason, today I thought it was a good idea to "get rid of" my lunch. I have no idea why. When I was driving back to work the thought hit me..."I need to throw up." I have been doing well and now look what I've gone and done today. WHY! I'm one messed up person.

(By the way: For anyone who reads my blogs...I know what I'm doing to myself is bad. Please don't leave comments saying that I shouldn't be doing what I'm doing. And don't suggest that I see someone, cause I already see my Doctor and a Counselor.)

Pineapple Chunks

I am currently sitting here at the computer and eating pineapple chunks straight out of the can and waiting for the TV show, Castle to come on.

Work was boring as usual. And someone blocked Facebook so I cant send the day on there talking with friends. O well. That just gives me more time to....work...yeah right!

I did come across a neat website today, when I was "working". I found all kinds of fun craft ideas that I'm gonna give a try. Here is the link: http://tipnut.com/ Go and check it out.

Books and Gifts

Got almost all of the things on list done today. Everything except for the tags for my car. Come to find out we owe some money on our personal property tax, so that has to be paid before I can get new tags. But all is good, cause Husband will take care of that next week.




Went to the book sale, like I said I would. Those are the books that I got. Only spent $12. Two dollars over my limit, o well.
Mama got a whole big box full.



I also bought the two baby gift for the showers tomorrow. I have to be at one place at 2:00 and the other shower at 2:30. Both are having girls. Decided to wrap the gifts instead of putting them in gift bags. Seems that everyone puts gifts in bags now days.

List

I'm up early, seeing as I'm off today. Book Sale today! Cant wait to go. I'm giving my self a $10 limit. When I told my husband that, he responded..."that's 40 books" Well what can I say, I NEED them. LOL

I've got tons of things to do today:

1. Book sale
2. Renew car tags
3. Go to Hallmark, have to get 3 cards
4. Buy 3 gifts
5. Go and fill out an application
6. Buy batteries for camera

Paperback Swap

I love to read. I always have my face stuck in a book. What is crazy is that I read three books at a time. I keep one in the car...for you know...when your stuck in traffic for over ten minutes or your at a really long red light. I also keep one in the living room and one in the bedroom.

The thing is, I don't like to spend $20 on a book. I usually pick them up at flea markets, my Mama gives me the ones she's done with, and book sales....which there is going to be a book sale tomorrow and Saturday. All paperback for $.25 and hardback are $1. You cant bet that! (and if you haven't figured it out already, that's where I'll be tomorrow)

I happened on a great site awhile back. Paperback swap. Its where you post books that you don't mind giving away, and then you get credits to pick out a book that you want. The only thing you have to pay, is the postage you buy to send the book. Its an awesome site. I have already saved like $50 by using the site.

Here is the link: http://www.paperbackswap.com/index.php

Background = Done

I finally was able to find a background that I liked...took about 2 hours. Soon I'm off to bed!

Good news: I didn't "get rid of my supper tonight" (maybe that was cause I was busy on here...hey whatever works)
I know that I need to schedule another appointment with my councelor...but for some reason I keep putting it off. I already missed two appointments. I just....don't want to go. But, I know that I NEED to.

Bad news: My head hurts...prolly cause of the weather.

I'm going to bed..gonna read some first.

About Time

I thought about it and thought about it...and finally I've decided to have a blog. I need one where I can rant and rave...and nobody (husbands family) reads it and freaks out. Kinda like they do when they somehow read the blogs I post on myspace. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.