5 Pounds

Five pounds down. Not alot but its a start. I would have thought I'd had lost more.
Here I am at work. Uggg! I so don't want to be here today. I would rather be at home laying on the couch and watching TV.
I truly hope that I will get this new job that I have applied for. I don't think I have ever wanted a job this bad before.
Father's Day is the coming Sunday, I just now realized.
This week is going by SO slow. I prolly say that every week. O well.
I have been having a pain on my right side. Not sure what the cause of it is. Guess I'll wait a few more days and if its still there I'll make an appointment to see the Doctor.
I'm so bored! You know when someone goes to work they should not be bored.

Rambling Away....

Here I sit at my desk. Should be working, but you know how that goes. Will be leaving work today at 3. Can't explain right now. Top Secret Mission.
My head hurts....wait what else is new.
I keep having to get up and turn the air up. Its freezing in here. Guess I need to bring my wool pea coat and keep it up here this summer. Gotta stay warm somehow. Right now it is so cold in here that it hurts my fingers to type.
I added a countdown ticker to the bottom. Gonna count down the days till I board that ship. Also it will show me how many days I've gotta work-out.
Maybe I should ask my Doctor if I can have surgery. Cut off everything inch I don't want. Should be recovered in time.
Soon Baby Abby will be here. June 1st will be the day.
I'm freaking starving. My belly is telling me to put food in it. I skipped lunch since I have to leave early. Prolly will skip lunch for the rest of the week to make up the time I lose today.
Saw Jennifer and Kyle this weekend. They came down for a visit.
Man, I am hungry!

Stuff

I wish it was time to go home.
I got rid of my lunch today. I usually dont do that. I mostly get rid of food after supper.
After I ate, I rushed back here to work. I had to get that food out of my belly. It just had to come out!
I'm always worried that someone will here me. Its not like I'm at home where I have complete privacy.
I dont think I've mentioned it, Stephanie had Rylee Monday morning. What a beautiful baby she is. I'll try to remember to post pictures.
On Tuesday, I knocked my driver side mirror off my car. I hit my mirror on the Sonic menu. I so need to pay attention more.
Now my car looks funny. I have a busted mirror and a big dent in the back. I so WANT a NEW car. Its past time that I got one.
Maybe if I hadnt been fired, I would have a new one by now.
Its just now 3. This afternoon is dragging by. I'm screaming. Inside my head.
The sun came out today. But the rest of the week is supposed to be rainy.
BF is still in the hospital. I wish they would figure out what is causing her head to hurt. I dont see how she maintaned her sanity. I so would have already had a break-down. She is way tougher than I am.
My PaPa has finally became apart of the FB world. I love that my parents can use the computer and the internet.
Guess I better get by to work. Even though I'd rather not.
Time. Please. Speed. By.

Still Awake

Here I am sitting here, WIDE AWAKE. Why? Damn...I sound like an old person. I should be out on a Friday Night, not sitting here at the computer. This is what happens when you push people away. They are all out and here I sit. O well.
I'm gonna join a gym.
It has come to my attention that I have started to wear a black shirt every single day. Not the same one mind you, but a black one neverless. I have a closet full of different colored tops...but it seems that I would rather wear black.
My head is starting to hurt again. Had a migraine yesterday and had to leave work. I've been thinking, maybe I should start taking my mirgaine meds again. I'm not sure though. I'm already a walking zombie from the meds I'm already takin.
I have had "control" all week. Yesterday I tried and tried...but nothing. Why do I feel guilty, not for doing that, for not being able to get anything up. Crap! After thinking that I now want to get up, feed, and then rush to the bathroom. Even though I have never binged before. I'm so not right in the head.
So glad that its Saturday. Now if only it would rain. Then it would be perfect.
I'm thinking about going to some flea markets tomorrow. Who knows. I might just lay in bed all day and read.
Speaking of reading, I'm currently reading "Paint it Black" By Janet Fitch. Awesome book so far. She is the author of White Oleander...never read it though. Havent seen the movie either. Dont matter, cause I'd rather read it then watch it.
I'm freakin freezing. I have no idea why Husband thinks he has to keep it so freakin cold in here.
I'm going to bed. Gonna snuggle down under my heating blanket and read myself to sleep.

Rambling Away

Come on Rain! I'm head is freaking killing me. Lots of pressure but when the rain comes down...relief. Kinda weird huh?

As of yesterday, I'm now totally moved from the front desk to a....ummm office..LOL yeah Right. I wonder if I'm still considered "Front Desk?"

Past ready it to be 5 o'clock already. Cant wait for Saturday and Sunday, for then I have nothing and I mean nothing to do except lay on the couch and watch TV until my brain becomes nothing but mush. O the joy of TV.

I might get off the couch for a little bit. Make my Brother come with me and go to Olive Garden. I want just there salad. That's all I go there to eat. O and drink a vanilla cream soda that they serve.

Did I mention that my HEAD HURTS! I want to slam my head against my desk. Prolly would freak people out if I did that. They walk by and and here I am slamming my head down on my desk over and over. Naw better not.

O something strange I saw yesterday morning. A tire was rolling down the road. Yes, one tire and it was rolling down the road. I passed it. I even glanced for it when I went to lunch, but it was nowhere to be seen. Very strange.

Stumbleupon

It's really neat. My Mom sent me an email about it. And like the photo below, that's exactly how I felt last night.


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Urban Dictionary

Karen 1803 up, 644 down

Karen is the perfect woman. She has no flaw. She's funny, sweet, smart as hell, and above all, she is extremely gorgeous. She doesn't let anyone push her around and she has a great personality. She has some awesome goals set and always wins my heart. Has great taste in guys. Don't listen to what the other jack-off put. Everybody loves Karen.

If you were to look up the word "amazing" in the dictionary, there would be a picture of Karen.

http://www.urbandictionary.com/

Real Age

“What age are you if you weren’t told what age you really are?”


You Act Like You Are 20 Years Old

You are a twenty-something at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life.
You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up.
The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

http://blogthings.com/whatagequiz/results/?result=20


Calendar Age
27.4 Difference
+3.7 RealAge
31.1

http://www.realage.com/ralong/entry4.aspx?cbr=GGLE806&gclid=CNX0yOiV35kCFQEhDQodRnkdVg

Starburst

1 o'clock. Come on 5 o'clock.

I went home for lunch and I must say I didnt want to leave. I wanted to stay there and take a nap on the couch.

I had a suprise when I went inside. The puppy pad was torn to shreds and all over the livingroom. I wonder what I did that made Bella mad at me. It seems she only tears up the puppy pad when I dont come home on time. O well, I just sweeped it up. I love her too much to be mad.

Right now I'm having some Starburst and a coke. I freakin love Starburst!

Gotta go. BF gave me some work to do.

Personality Test - Report

My Personality

Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	6
Openness to Experience	43
Agreeableness	14
Conscientiousness	18

You feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much, however you are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans.


Neuroticism

Anxiety	96
Anger	98
Depression	99
Self-Consciousness	90
Immoderation	81
Vulnerability	94

You feel tense, jittery, and nervous and often feel like something dangerous is about to happen. You may be afraid of specific situations or be just generally fearful. You feel enraged when things do not go your way. You are sensitive about being treated fairly and feel resentful and bitter if you think you are being cheated. You tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You are sensitive about what others think of you. Your concern about rejection and ridicule cause you to feel shy and uncomfortable around others. You are easily embarrassed and often feel ashamed. Your fears that others will criticize or make fun of you are exaggerated and unrealistic, but your awkwardness and discomfort may make these fears a self-fulfilling prophecy. You feel strong cravings and urges that you have difficulty resisting. You tend to prefer short-term pleasures and rewards over long-term consequences. You experience panic, confusion, and helplessness when under pressure or stress.

Extraversion

Friendliness	3
Gregariousness	1
Assertiveness	13
Activity Level	53
Excitement-Seeking	15
Cheerfulness	50

People generally perceive you as distant and reserved, and you do not usually reach out to others. You tend to feel overwhelmed by, and therefore actively avoid, large crowds. You often need privacy and time for yourself. You tend not to talk much and prefer to let others control the activities of groups. You lead a moderately paced life. You like some energetic activities, but also like to relax and take it easy. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You have a generally cheerful disposition.

Openness to Experience

Imagination	64
Artistic Interests	89
Emotionality	70
Adventurousness	7
Intellect	27
Liberalism	29

You are a moderately imaginative person who enjoys a good balance between the real world and fantasy. You love beauty, both in art and in nature. Sometimes you become easily involved and absorbed in artistic and natural events. You have good access to and awareness of your own feelings. You prefer familiar routines and for things to stay the same. You can tend to feel uncomfortable with change. You prefer dealing with either people or things rather than ideas. You regard intellectual exercises as a waste of your time. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition.

Agreeableness

Trust	67
Morality	45
Altruism	39
Cooperation	0
Modesty	60
Sympathy	1

You naturally assume that most people are fair, honest, and have good intentions. There are times when you believe that a certain amount of deception in social relationships is necessary, however you are mostly candid, frank and sincere. People find it moderately easy to relate to you. You will help others if they are in need. If people ask for too much of your time you feel that they are imposing on you. You are not adverse to confrontation and will sometimes even intimidate others to get your own way. You are willing to take credit for good things that you do but you don't often talk yourself up much. You are not affected strongly by human suffering, priding yourself on making objective judgments based on reason. You are more concerned with truth and impartial justice than with mercy.

Conscientiousness

Self-Efficacy	65
Orderliness	75
Dutifulness	3
Achievement-Striving	0
Self-Discipline	23
Cautiousness	13

You are moderately confident that you can achieve the goals you set yourself. You are well-organized and like to live according to routines and schedules. Often you will keep lists and make plans. You find contracts, rules, and regulations overly confining and are sometimes seen as unreliable or even irresponsible by others. You are content to get by with a minimal amount of work, and might be seen by others as lazy. You find yourself procrastinating and show poor follow-through on tasks. Often you fail to complete tasks - even tasks that you want very much to complete. You often say or do the first thing that comes to mind without deliberating alternatives and the probable consequences of those alternatives.

http://www.learnmyself.com/

Bored

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