Flushing Money

Instead of sticking my finger down my throat, I'm just gonna flush my money down the toilet.




I'd be way more healthier if I did.

Outcast

I'll probably be fired soon. I feel it coming on. I can do no right around here. Its like two people here find something in everything I do wrong.
Fire me. I don't care. I'm tired of being the bitch around here.
Instead of whispering about me, go ahead and tell me whats on your mind. Really, I want to know.
If you want me to help you, fine, but don't work against me. We do work for the same company last time I checked. O wait, I forget, I'm not part for your little group.
I guess that's what I get because the groups hates it when I stand up for myself, Don't let you walk all over me, Don't care what you think and don't sit around with the rest of the group making fun of everyone.
I like being the outsider if you haven't figured it out yet!

"Someone Shit on the Coats"

Here’s another way to be remembered, again, this one is more personal,
it’s more for you because nobody is ever going to know that it was you...
but you’ll know, and that’s all that matters.
Next time you go to a party, a great big party,
go into the room where all the coats are, and shit on the coats...
Guaranteed at some point somebody is going to walk outta that room
and go,
“SOMEONE SHIT ON THE COATS…. SOMEONE HAS SHIT ON THE COATS”
That’s the only thing you can say when someone shits on the coats,
“Someone shit on the coats.” They might say,
“I think someone shit on the coats", but you know…
You just don’t want to be the bearer of bad news,
“I think someone may have shit on or around the coats area,
there’s a smell of shit around the perimeter, the vicinity of coats.
Leading me to believe that someone has shit...”
But again you’re there, you’re there watching it all happen,
and it’s your job, all you’re going to do at some point,
you’re going to lean in and go, “What!?!”
And then blend back into the crowd...
“What?! I hope that it wasn’t on my coat.”
And then, boom, you’re a phantom, you just disappear, disappear.


~ Dane Cook

Jobs

"List the jobs you've had during your life."

Applied Graphics - I folded shirts
Baby Sitter - Self Explantory
Sonic - Was the most awful car hop ever
Pizza Hut - LOL
Bright Ideas - 3 year old teacher and cook
Wal-Mart - Sales Associate
Crawford & Company - Set up claims
Supreme - Everyones Bitch

Rambling Away....

Here I sit at my desk. Should be working, but you know how that goes. Will be leaving work today at 3. Can't explain right now. Top Secret Mission.
My head hurts....wait what else is new.
I keep having to get up and turn the air up. Its freezing in here. Guess I need to bring my wool pea coat and keep it up here this summer. Gotta stay warm somehow. Right now it is so cold in here that it hurts my fingers to type.
I added a countdown ticker to the bottom. Gonna count down the days till I board that ship. Also it will show me how many days I've gotta work-out.
Maybe I should ask my Doctor if I can have surgery. Cut off everything inch I don't want. Should be recovered in time.
Soon Baby Abby will be here. June 1st will be the day.
I'm freaking starving. My belly is telling me to put food in it. I skipped lunch since I have to leave early. Prolly will skip lunch for the rest of the week to make up the time I lose today.
Saw Jennifer and Kyle this weekend. They came down for a visit.
Man, I am hungry!

Relief

I stand there
Bent over
My hair pulled up

Finger down my throat
My eyes tear up
I feel that I’m about to choke

Up it comes
The poison that I put inside
Relief doesn’t come

Finger down my throat
Head starts to hurt
Pain deep inside

Up it comes
I’m empty inside
I sigh





Karen
5/14/09

Relatives

"List the names of 10 of your relatives and write profile of each."


1. Hiro (Nephew): 2 years old. Blonde hair. Beautiful blue eyes. Like to be a pirate. Says, "O man". Loves to take a bath. Wants to eat cookies all the time. Jumps on Juno.

2. Sharon (Mama): Best mother ever. Likes to read, sew, go to yard sales. Good cook. Has 4 children. 1 grandchild. Lover of the beach. Collects lighthouses. Kind. Loving. Has dirty dishwater blonde hair. Is shorter than all of her children.

3. James (Papa): Bald. Tall. Cop. Likes to eat Pizza. Great Papa. Loves to take Cruise's. Stubborn. Gives good advice. Wears glasses. Has tattoos.

4. Katie (Sister): Teenager. Beautiful. Funny. Dancer. Loves the color lime green. Likes ice cream. Blondish brownish hair. Likes to read, shop, and hang out with her friends. Has tons and tones of clothes and shoes.

5. Josh (Brother): Black hair. Has an awesome son. Draws. Wears glasses. Loves to read. Like to hang out with friends. Wants to move away for Arkansas one day. Cooks really well. Tattoo. Going on a cruise. Has a cat. Great person to spend time with.

6. Charlie (Brother): Great at sports. Brown hair. Good head on his shoulders. Will graduate next year. Handsome. Can sing. Loves his family. Likes to eat. Lives in a haunted bedroom. Wants to be a teacher/coach. Loves movies.

7. Rylee (Second Cousin): Born this past Monday. Beautiful. Has a head full of dark hair. Already knows her name. Sleeps alot.

8. Lenee (Step-Sister): Beautiful person inside and out. Loves her family and friends. Going to be a teacher. Loves God.

9. Brekka (Step-Sister): Getting married soon. Works at a coffee shop. Has a big heart. Likes to spend time with family. Short. Friendly. Likes to laugh.

10. Jessica (Cousin): Hates to read. Loves to shop. Funny. Very pretty. Plans girls-night-outs. Tan. Has dark hair. Has lots of clothes, shoes and jewelry.

Fun Wash...yeah right

Who ever named the laundry mat, "Fun Wash", is an ass. The laundry mat is in no way FUN!

I had to take some clothes there to wash and dry because our dryer is broken. There was no air conditioning. One man continued to laugh really loud at the tv. Another man decided it was best to do his laundry without his shirt on.

NOT MY IDEA OF A FUN TIME BY ANY MEANS!

Stuff

I wish it was time to go home.
I got rid of my lunch today. I usually dont do that. I mostly get rid of food after supper.
After I ate, I rushed back here to work. I had to get that food out of my belly. It just had to come out!
I'm always worried that someone will here me. Its not like I'm at home where I have complete privacy.
I dont think I've mentioned it, Stephanie had Rylee Monday morning. What a beautiful baby she is. I'll try to remember to post pictures.
On Tuesday, I knocked my driver side mirror off my car. I hit my mirror on the Sonic menu. I so need to pay attention more.
Now my car looks funny. I have a busted mirror and a big dent in the back. I so WANT a NEW car. Its past time that I got one.
Maybe if I hadnt been fired, I would have a new one by now.
Its just now 3. This afternoon is dragging by. I'm screaming. Inside my head.
The sun came out today. But the rest of the week is supposed to be rainy.
BF is still in the hospital. I wish they would figure out what is causing her head to hurt. I dont see how she maintaned her sanity. I so would have already had a break-down. She is way tougher than I am.
My PaPa has finally became apart of the FB world. I love that my parents can use the computer and the internet.
Guess I better get by to work. Even though I'd rather not.
Time. Please. Speed. By.

The Spoon

"Write from the point of view of a spoon inside the dishwasher."


I have ice cream on me. I'm dropped into the basket in the dishwasher. Head up. I have to share my slot in the basket with a fork, knife and another spoon. I wish they would scoot over. I need more room.
The door shuts, man it is dark in here. Good thing I have night vision.
I jump, the door opens. More item are put inside. I look up and see a purple plastic cup, a few coffee cups and one lone lid.
The door is flung shut. I here the latch catch. Its finally time. I shall be clean in no time.
The water comes. Filling up the inside. Water is all around me. The water in here is warm. Its the perfect temperature. I so enjoy the feel of the warm water as it washes over me.
I hear a pop. That means the detergent dispenser has opened. It always know just when to open up. I love the lemon scent of the soap.
The fork falls into me. I repeat once again, scoot over please.
Here comes the rough moment. We all hold on tight while the water shoots from the jets, getting us all clean. I'm now clean.
All the dirty water starts to drain. I look up, yep the lone lid is still there. Sometimes those silly little lids get thrown into the bottom of the dish machine. They should really learn how to hold on tighter.
More water now starts to spray. It rinses me off.
The water once again drains.
My favorite part is coming up. The air inside of here starts to heat up. Its so warm. I'm now all dry and clean, but the best part of all is that I shine once again.

Movies

"List some of your favorite movies."


8 Seconds
10 Things I Hate About You
A Time To Kill
A Walk To Remember
Aladdin
Alice In Wonderland
American Outlaws
An Officer And A Gentleman
Anna And The King
Anne of Green Gables
Apollo 13
Australia
Back To The Future
Back To The Future Part II
Back To The Future Part III
Bad Santa
Bambi
Beauty And The Beast
Beauty Shop
Beetle Juice
Bewitched
Bicentennial Man
Bio-Dome
Blast From The Past
Bruce Almighty
Captain Ron
Casper
Catch And Release
Catch Me If You Can
Cats And Dogs
Cellular
Charlie and the Chocolate Factory
Clueless
Coming To America
Corky Romano
Coyote Ugly
Crossroads
Dennis The Menace
Dirty Dancing
Divine Secrets Of The Ya-Ya Sisterhood
Drop Dead Gorgeous
Dumb And Dumber
Edward Scissorhands
Employee Of The Month
Enough
Ever After
Executive Decision
E.T. The Extra Terrestrial
Far And Away
Ferris Bueller's Day Off
Final Destination
Final Destination 2
Final Destination 3
Finding Nemo
Flight Of The Navigator
Forrest Gump
Girl, Interrupted
Gone In Sixty Seconds
Good Luck Chuck
Gremlins
Guarding Tess
Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets
Harry Potter And The Goblet Of Fire
Harry Potter And The Order Of The Phoenix
Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban
Harry Potter And The Sorcerer's Stone
House Of Wax
How The Grinch Stole Christmas
How To Lose A Guy In 10 Days
Ice Age
Interview With The Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles
Jackass: The Movie
Jerry Maguire
Jungle Book
Juno
Jurassic Park
Kindergarten Cop
Lady And The Tramp
Last Holiday
Lemony Snicket's a Series of Unfortunate Events
Liar Liar
Mary Poppins
Meet Joe Black
Meet The Fockers
Mighty Joe Young
Mr. & Mrs. Smith
Mulan
Mulan 2
Nights In Rodanthe
Office Space
Pan's Labyrinth
Panic Room
Pete's Dragon
Peter Pan
Pirates Of The Caribbean : The Curse of the Black Pearl
Pirates Of The Caribbean: At World's End
Pirates Of The Caribbean: Dead Man's Chest
Pleasantville
Practical Magic
Pretty Woman
P.S., I Love You
Rain Man
Road Trip
Saw
Saw II
Saw III
Saw Iv
Saw V (Saw 5)
School Of Rock
Seabiscuit
Secondhand Lions
She's The Man
Shrek
Shrek 2
Shrek The Third
Sleepless In Seattle
Spirit: Stallion Of The Cimarron
Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber Of Fleet Street
Sweet Home Alabama
Sydney White
Talladega Nights: The Ballad Of Ricky Bobby
Tarzan
The 40 Year-Old Virgin
The Beach
The Bone Collector
The Breakfast Club
The Brothers Grimm
The Burbs
The Butterfly Effect
The Cider House Rules
The Dark Knight
The Fox And The Hound
The Girl Next Door
The Glass House
The Goonies
The Guardian
The Illusionist
The King And I
The Lion King
The Little Mermaid
The Nanny Diaries
The Neverending Story
The Parent Trap
The River Wild
The Secret Garden
The Secret Life Of Bees
The Sixth Sense
The Sweetest Thing
The Truman Show
The Wedding Date
The Wedding Planner
The Wizard Of Oz
The Women
Toy Story
Twilight
Twister
Uptown Girls
Varsity Blues
Walk the Line
What's Eating Gilbert Grape
What A Girl Wants
What Happens In Vegas...
When Harry Met Sally
Where The Heart Is
Willy Wonka & The Chocolate Factory
You've Got Mail
Zack And Miri Make A Porno

Mama

Mama,

On this Mother's Day I want to express how much you mean to me. From you I have learned how to love and put others first.
I'm very lucky to have you for a mom. You hold my hand when I'm sick, you cry with me, you laugh with me. You love me unconditional no matter what I have done and do. You accept me for who I am, even when I don't accept myself.
Your not just my Mama, but you are my Best Friend as well.

Happy Mother's Day! I love you.

Wedding

I had an amazing time at my Friend's wedding last night. That was the most fun I have ever had at a wedding.
The Bride was absolutely stunning. The groom, he was dashing.
The wedding was held outside in a pavilion. The rain was falling. By far the most romantic wedding I have ever attended.

Congratulations you two! May your love continue to grow ever more.

Ready to go home

This work week is almost over. I'm so ready for the weekend to begin. I have been super busy at work this week. I don't know how my BF does it. Kudos to her!
Lots of stuff I gotta do this weekend. Noon tomorrow I have to be at the Tea Room to have Mother's Day lunch with my Mama. Then at 5:30 Jess will be getting married. I will be there for that. On Sunday, I plan on laying on the couch all day long. Maybe, I'll go out to buy a paper and coffee. Who knows.
I baked a cake for a guy up here. Sunday is His Birthday. I think the cake went over well. Half of it is gone.
I have to go shopping when I leave here from work. I need to find a shirt to wear to the wedding. I HATE CLOTHES SHOPPING! But it must be done.
Stamps will be going up to $0.44. That is insane. They might as well as set the price for a $1.00 and be done with the price raising for a while.
Come on 5!
I bought my Mother's Day cards yesterday. I try to buy any and all cards way before the eve of the date. I hate having to push myself in between people at the Hallmark store. Not fun. Plus, I think I have great "card picking out" abilities. Its an art.
It take time for me to find just. the. right. card.
I so need to have my hair done real soon. My roots are showing.
I saw a person yesterday wearing a Christmas shirt. I hate when people wear Holiday shirts when its not the holiday. I should have said "Marry Christmas" to her. I would then in return get a nasty look thrown my way. That would have just been the chance I would have took. Next time. There is always next time.
Well, I'm gonna go clock out.

Barbie

"Your favorite childhood toy was..."


Barbie! How how I loved to play with my Barbies. I had tons of them. No, really I did. I had some at my Mama's house and my Papa's house.
I had a Barbie house. (that is exaclty like the one I had) I have bought one just like the one I had off Ebay. My step-mother at the time, kept all my Barbie stuff and all of my Brother's toys also.
I had tones of clothes, shoes and accesoires. A groceray store, a t-shirt shop, McDonalds, and etc.
I also got a Barbie magazine in the mail.
I would sit for hours at a time at my Papa's house playing Barbies. If I got up to use the bathroom, or leave our bedroom for any reason. He always thought it was a great time to start up is remote controled Bull Dozer, and Plow into my house. I'd get so mad. I'd scream and then Brother would have to sit on the couch for a little while. When we where older, he said sitting in time out was worth it.

I decide to look on the interent and see if I can find any of the Barbies I had and the things that went with them. I'm only gonna exaclty what I had. O the Memories!

Constipation

DOCTOR'S CURE FOR CONSTIPATION

If you are bothered by occasional or frequent constipation, look in the mirror and repeat the following phrase three times in succession when symptoms occur:


"My financial and personal well being are totally in the hands of Barack Obama, Joe Biden, Harry Reid, Nancy Pelosi, Tim Geithner, Rahm Emmanual, Barney Frank & Chris Dodd."


If that doesn't scare the crap out of you, then you are probably destined to be backed up for the rest of your life.

Words

"My 10 favorite words"

1. Hobo
2. Enchanting
3. Sasquatch
4. Tears
5. Daisy
6. Purple
7. Copacetic
8. Fine
9. No
10.Serendipity

Mood

I'm in a better mood when it rains.

Dollar Bills

I'm just passing this thought along ......

Have you ever wondered if the one dollar bills in your wallet/purse were ever in a strippers's butt crack?

If not, you're wondering now.

Have a nice day . :)

Truly Afraid

"I'm truly afraid of..."

Dying. It scares the crap out of me. I don't want to die, but I know someday I will. When I think about death it makes me sick to my stomach. I'm afraid of not being here.
World Ending. I make myself not think about this. I hate when people come up with a date and says that's the day. Kinda like people are saying that 2012 the world will end. When I was a teenage and I heard people talking about the world ending in 2000 I was a nerves wreck for months.
Alzheimer's. Just the word alone sends shivers down my body. I hope and pray that I never get this horrendous illness. Being trapped in my own body, no thanks.
Tornado. When the weather calls for Tornadoes, I pace the floors of my house. Ive seen the devastation that those things have caused. I'm scared of being in one.
Car Wreck. I'm actually afraid of driving, but its something that I have to do. No if, ands, or buts about it. I always have thoughts about being crushed in my car, Or a big truck tipping over and landing on my car and I being turned into mush.

Splash

When I'm driving in the rain, I make a point to drive through the puddles that are on the side of the road. Just so I can cause that big splash.

Wow

I went to a Friends house last night. I had fun. Wow, are those really my thoughts. She and I talked about so much. Things that we needed to talk about and things that we wanted to ask each other.
I spent yesterday at flea markets. It wa a beautiful day. It rained hard all day. Perfect. I found some good buys. I bought my Brother a lamp, got a CD, and a vintage postcard to send to someone on postcrossing.
BTW, if you dont know what Postcrossing is, you should so cheak it out. http://www.postcrossing.com/

Still Awake

Here I am sitting here, WIDE AWAKE. Why? Damn...I sound like an old person. I should be out on a Friday Night, not sitting here at the computer. This is what happens when you push people away. They are all out and here I sit. O well.
I'm gonna join a gym.
It has come to my attention that I have started to wear a black shirt every single day. Not the same one mind you, but a black one neverless. I have a closet full of different colored tops...but it seems that I would rather wear black.
My head is starting to hurt again. Had a migraine yesterday and had to leave work. I've been thinking, maybe I should start taking my mirgaine meds again. I'm not sure though. I'm already a walking zombie from the meds I'm already takin.
I have had "control" all week. Yesterday I tried and tried...but nothing. Why do I feel guilty, not for doing that, for not being able to get anything up. Crap! After thinking that I now want to get up, feed, and then rush to the bathroom. Even though I have never binged before. I'm so not right in the head.
So glad that its Saturday. Now if only it would rain. Then it would be perfect.
I'm thinking about going to some flea markets tomorrow. Who knows. I might just lay in bed all day and read.
Speaking of reading, I'm currently reading "Paint it Black" By Janet Fitch. Awesome book so far. She is the author of White Oleander...never read it though. Havent seen the movie either. Dont matter, cause I'd rather read it then watch it.
I'm freakin freezing. I have no idea why Husband thinks he has to keep it so freakin cold in here.
I'm going to bed. Gonna snuggle down under my heating blanket and read myself to sleep.

The Smoker, at the Last Trailer on the Right

Every Morning, when I leave for work, I stop at the stop sign. Which is beside the last trailer on my right. And every morning that woman stands there out on the concrete pad in front of her trailer. Smoking.
I've started to take notice of her each morning. I have no idea why.
The very first time I saw her, I wasn't sure if she was a she or a he. One day I decided instead of pretending I didn't see her, I looked over. She is a she. No bra.
So every morning I glance at her. Yep, same black pants, same gray t-shirt, no shoes, still no bra, and her bleach blonde hair with the really dark roots showing.
Sometime I get the urge to wave as I go past. You know the kind of wave where you just nod your head or you just lift your hand up for just a second. Sometimes I do this and sometimes not. For the life of me I cant figure out why I am disappointed when she doesn't respond.
Even though I don't give her any thought for the rest of the day. I always think of stuff while I'm sitting there at the stop sign. Does she work? Have any kids? Way isn't there ever a car there? Why does she always come out to smoke at the exact same time every morning? Why does she always have the same clothes on?
I pass through the stop sign and she fades from my mind until I see her the next morning. I will either decide to nod or wave or not, and I will continue to wait for a response.