Hiro's Trick or Treat

The air was crisp. The smell of leaves intoxicating. The moon full and bright. The streets where filled with witches, fairies, monsters, goblins and of course a Hog Fan.

Mama and I took Hiro out Trick or Treating. He had a great time. His Mamaw walked him up to doors and it didn't take long for him to get the hang of it. He would say "Trick or Treat" they would give him the treat and he would say, "thank you". What a polite boy he is.

It was such a joy for me to experience this with Him. A moment in time that I want to save so I can remember it always.

Its Been Awhile...

Since I last posted a blog. Life has been speeding by like normal.

Best Friend will be moving home in a couple of weeks or less. I've very excited for her to be back.

A friend and I are now back on speaking terms.

Family is well.

I love my job! I rode on a float for Western Hat Day. I got paid for having fun. Wow, never thought I would say that.

Husband and I are getting along. Happy to be reporting that.

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Three weeks as of today. I have not thrown up. I'm not exactly happy about this. I look in the mirror and once again hate who I see looking back at me.

Day One

At noon today I stepped into a whole new world. I looked around me and thought to myself...I can't do this. What have I gotten myself into.
I looked around me. Is really how some people will send their last days. It made me sick. I thought, here sitting in front of me is a woman. She was someones daughter, she could be someones Mother or even Grandmother. But here she sits and its me feeding her and not a family member.
Here this woman is, she lived a full life....and now she sits here and cant do anything for herself, or even talk.
What am I doing here, I asked myself again.

All those thoughts ran through my head in a matter of minutes. Then I took a deep breath and lifted the spoon to her mouth. I'm here because I'm supposed to be.