Hoping and Wishing

I have been working at the hospital for some time now.
I hate it.
I don't feel like I am a difference. I feel like I'm just there to bring people ice and take there blood pressure.

I belong at the Health Center.
I have called to see if I can get my job back. I believe that I should be given a second chance. My fear is, is that I wont be hired back.

I didn't realize how much I actually enjoyed my job. I miss the people I worked with. And most importantly I miss helping the ladies that live there.
They became a part of my life.

I had found my place. Then I went and let it be taken from me. Now, I'm fighting for it.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed and saying an extra prayer. Doing a little hoping and wishing also. I will call back tomorrow.

So Far So Good

Lots of good things have been happening here recently.

First off, I got a job at the hospital. Really happy about that. I'll be doing more than just changing and bathing people. Ill get to draw blood, which I'm totally excited about.

Second, Roommate and I got the house that we really wanted to rent. We move in on the 11th. Its in Benton. Three bedrooms and two baths. It has a huge deck on the back. Good for putting a lawn chair on and doing some reading.
Third, I have finally decided that I AM going back to school. Jessica and I WILL start in August. Going back to school is something I have wanted to do for a long time. Instead of just wanting, I'm actually going to DO.

When loved ones told me, "this is your year", well I'm really starting to believe it.

Its Been Awhile...

Since I last posted a blog. Life has been speeding by like normal.

Best Friend will be moving home in a couple of weeks or less. I've very excited for her to be back.

A friend and I are now back on speaking terms.

Family is well.

I love my job! I rode on a float for Western Hat Day. I got paid for having fun. Wow, never thought I would say that.

Husband and I are getting along. Happy to be reporting that.

Day One

At noon today I stepped into a whole new world. I looked around me and thought to myself...I can't do this. What have I gotten myself into.
I looked around me. Is really how some people will send their last days. It made me sick. I thought, here sitting in front of me is a woman. She was someones daughter, she could be someones Mother or even Grandmother. But here she sits and its me feeding her and not a family member.
Here this woman is, she lived a full life....and now she sits here and cant do anything for herself, or even talk.
What am I doing here, I asked myself again.

All those thoughts ran through my head in a matter of minutes. Then I took a deep breath and lifted the spoon to her mouth. I'm here because I'm supposed to be.

Finding My Place

With one week of school behind me, I have realized that I may have finally found my true place in the world of careers.
I'm ready to get to my unit and meet the Residents, whom I will be helping take care of.
Before even going to class, all I could think about was the money I was going to be making. Now all I can think about is that those Residents are alot more important than any pay check.