Day One

At noon today I stepped into a whole new world. I looked around me and thought to myself...I can't do this. What have I gotten myself into.
I looked around me. Is really how some people will send their last days. It made me sick. I thought, here sitting in front of me is a woman. She was someones daughter, she could be someones Mother or even Grandmother. But here she sits and its me feeding her and not a family member.
Here this woman is, she lived a full life....and now she sits here and cant do anything for herself, or even talk.
What am I doing here, I asked myself again.

All those thoughts ran through my head in a matter of minutes. Then I took a deep breath and lifted the spoon to her mouth. I'm here because I'm supposed to be.