Zoloft Withdrawal

I ran out of Zoloft on Friday. Me being me, I thought I would be fine and make it till Monday so I could get my pills.

Wrong.

Friday I felt fine.

Saturday I was having the yard sale. Felt kinda funny but thought maybe it was the weather. It didn't cross my mind that it could have been not having my meds.

Sunday. Sick. I was having panic attacks. Feeling sick. Was hot and then cold. Could not get comfortable. Paced most of the day. Figured, OK, I definitely need my meds. Called to see if I could get any some where. No. Called people I knew. No. Finally called Lisamom and asked if she could give me something to calm down. She said yes. Sent Josh to get it.

This Morning. Felt OK when I woke up. A little shaky. Took a shower, started to have a panic attach. Had to shower with the shower curtain open. Was going to call in but thought no, the girls will need me there. Wont be fair to them.

On the way to work, had a panic attack. To late to call in so continued on to work.

I was shaky, sick to my stomach and realized that I wasn't going to make it through out the day if I didn't get my meds in me.
I asked the RN if I could leave to pick up my meds. She said sure.
I drove all the way to the pharmacy and they had to fax the Doctor. I was out of refills.
Got upset over that, and of course had another attach.
Made it back to work. Got back on the unit and then all hell broke loose. I have four panic attack.
Explained myself to the RN. I opened my big mouth and she found out that I had taken some meds from my Stepmom. She asked me if I had a prescription for them I said no.
She then told me that I would have to be drug tested. And if anything was found then she would have to terminate me.

Don't know what a panic attach is look here: http://www.medicinenet.com/panic_disorder/article.htm




I freaked out and called the Doctor....don't have to worry. I DO have a prescription for it.
I was sill made to take the drug test.

RN said that I should not be having panic attacks since it takes a week for the meds to get out of my system.

Wrong! A person can have withdrawal symptom's up to eight hours of missing a dose.

Zoloft withdrawal symptoms can occur at any dosage. Zoloft withdrawal symptoms can begin within eight hours of a missed dose and can last from one to eight weeks. The particularly nasty Effexor withdrawal symptoms can easily last beyond eight weeks.
http://www.add-adhd-help-center.com/depression/zoloft_withdrawal.htm

Withdrawal Symptoms:
*Anxiety
*Dizziness
*Fatigue
*Vomiting
*Restlessness
Muscle and joint pain
*Jolting electric "zaps”
Tingling sensations
*Fever
Abdominal discomfort
Flu symptoms and general malaise
*Sleep disturbance and insomnia
Nightmares
Vivid dreams
Anorexia, agitation
*Irritability
Aggression
Confusion
*Memory and concentration difficulties
Lethargy
Tremors
*Headache
*Insomnia
Nausea
Visual hallucinations
*Diarrhea
*Blurred vision
Vertigo
Gait disturbances
*Sweating
Weakness
Myalgia
*Chills and hot flashes
*Crying spells
Suicidal thoughts

Ive put a star by the symptoms that I have had or still have.

Seems to me, this RN doesn't have a clue what she is talking about.

Plus its my body. I know when something doesn't feel right. I think it was uncalled for to be drug tested. But since I had nothing to hide, I agreed to take it.

I now have my meds. Still panicky, still have most of the symptoms... but I feel calmer. I think the reason for that is, I'm at home, safe, away from people looking at me like I'm crazy.

Panic Attack

I've just had a panic attack. No fun. I also think I'm in the process of having another. So I deiced to blog and that way it will get my mind off of it.
I was starting to feel better and then I started working on an estimate sheet and boom, another one is coming on. Maybe I need to stay away from that estimate sheet for a little while.
Having a panic attack scars me SO BAD! The whole time I am thinking...I'm having a heart attack this is it. Heck if I think like that I could give my self a heart attack.
Let me tell you what usually happens during one of my panic attacks.
1. My chest starts to hurt
2. My arm starts to hurt...that's when I immediately think...Heart attack...I read to much about symptoms
3. I get really really hot
4. I cant swallow...makes me panic even more
5. I start to shake
6. My back starts to hurt....o no! Now I'm really having a heart attack
7. I find someone to talk to...this helps...I have a friend who usually talks about kitty cats when I call him
8. Deep breaths...in and out...in and out...in and out...in and out
9. I can swallow again
10. Arm, chest and back still hurts
11. Deep breath...in and out...in and out...in and out
12. Migraine starts to come on
13. I get really cold now...starting to shiver
14. Exhausted

So there you have it.

Ummm, maybe I'll start to feel better if I change the subject.

Weather. Its sunny out now, it was rainying...I'd rather have the rain.

Opps...I need to call my Mama back so she is not sitting there worring about me. Okay, just spoke to her and let her know what is going on.

I need a nap and some Advil.