Hoping and Wishing

I have been working at the hospital for some time now.
I hate it.
I don't feel like I am a difference. I feel like I'm just there to bring people ice and take there blood pressure.

I belong at the Health Center.
I have called to see if I can get my job back. I believe that I should be given a second chance. My fear is, is that I wont be hired back.

I didn't realize how much I actually enjoyed my job. I miss the people I worked with. And most importantly I miss helping the ladies that live there.
They became a part of my life.

I had found my place. Then I went and let it be taken from me. Now, I'm fighting for it.

I'm keeping my fingers crossed and saying an extra prayer. Doing a little hoping and wishing also. I will call back tomorrow.

There's Something in the Water

Two people have become pregnant on the unit I work on. One just happens to be my cousin. It seems that every where I look someone is pregnant....must be nice.
Yes, I'm to the point once again where I want to be a mother.
Husband...well, He's not so sure. That's a man for you.
I'm one day late. I know. I know. That does not mean a thing, but I cant help but think, what if.
If it comes that I'm not this month...someone better give me some of that water I keep hearing so much about.

Pride

I'm so looking for a new job.
I'm fed up with people here. Today I was told that I need to take pride in my work. What fucking work? I do their work. Crap that they dont want to do. Just because you dont want to do it doesnt me that I do.
I need the paycheck but not your attitude.
I left for lunch today and it took everything I had to come back here.
Damn the need for money!

Outcast

I'll probably be fired soon. I feel it coming on. I can do no right around here. Its like two people here find something in everything I do wrong.
Fire me. I don't care. I'm tired of being the bitch around here.
Instead of whispering about me, go ahead and tell me whats on your mind. Really, I want to know.
If you want me to help you, fine, but don't work against me. We do work for the same company last time I checked. O wait, I forget, I'm not part for your little group.
I guess that's what I get because the groups hates it when I stand up for myself, Don't let you walk all over me, Don't care what you think and don't sit around with the rest of the group making fun of everyone.
I like being the outsider if you haven't figured it out yet!

Fun Wash...yeah right

Who ever named the laundry mat, "Fun Wash", is an ass. The laundry mat is in no way FUN!

I had to take some clothes there to wash and dry because our dryer is broken. There was no air conditioning. One man continued to laugh really loud at the tv. Another man decided it was best to do his laundry without his shirt on.

NOT MY IDEA OF A FUN TIME BY ANY MEANS!

Ready to go home

This work week is almost over. I'm so ready for the weekend to begin. I have been super busy at work this week. I don't know how my BF does it. Kudos to her!
Lots of stuff I gotta do this weekend. Noon tomorrow I have to be at the Tea Room to have Mother's Day lunch with my Mama. Then at 5:30 Jess will be getting married. I will be there for that. On Sunday, I plan on laying on the couch all day long. Maybe, I'll go out to buy a paper and coffee. Who knows.
I baked a cake for a guy up here. Sunday is His Birthday. I think the cake went over well. Half of it is gone.
I have to go shopping when I leave here from work. I need to find a shirt to wear to the wedding. I HATE CLOTHES SHOPPING! But it must be done.
Stamps will be going up to $0.44. That is insane. They might as well as set the price for a $1.00 and be done with the price raising for a while.
Come on 5!
I bought my Mother's Day cards yesterday. I try to buy any and all cards way before the eve of the date. I hate having to push myself in between people at the Hallmark store. Not fun. Plus, I think I have great "card picking out" abilities. Its an art.
It take time for me to find just. the. right. card.
I so need to have my hair done real soon. My roots are showing.
I saw a person yesterday wearing a Christmas shirt. I hate when people wear Holiday shirts when its not the holiday. I should have said "Marry Christmas" to her. I would then in return get a nasty look thrown my way. That would have just been the chance I would have took. Next time. There is always next time.
Well, I'm gonna go clock out.

Annoyed

"List 20 things that annoy you. Then write, in detail, why it annoys you. Describe!"


1. Those people who stop before they turn.....The road that you turn on to get to my house there is a turning lane, no stop sign or yield sign is there...but every once in a while I'll be behind someone who thinks they have to stop dead for a minute. GO! GET OUT OF MY WAY!

2. Hangers sticking up in the closet.....My Husband does this. He pulls an article of clothing off the hanger and then the hanger shoots up and is sticking up and out. So by the end of the week all those hanger are sticking up all over the closet. I HATE IT. Don't hank the clothes off, take the hanger off the rack, take clothes off, and the put the empty hanger on the side where I keep all the other empty hangers. How hard is that!

3. When I'm told what to do even though I already know what to do......Here at work people put things at the corner of my desk for FedEx to pick up. When there are things there I KNOW that I'm supposed to call FedEx, don't come by every time and say "Will you call FedEx" I ALREADY PLANNED TO!

4. Notes on my front door....Where I live, the Land-Lady is always posting notes on people's door. A note for when we need to mow the grass, that we need to move a car, that we need to plant flowers, so on and so on. I HATE it! Leave all of us alone. We all know when its time to mow. That car is fine where its at. If you want me to plant flowers then you better buy the seeds.

5. Tomatoes.......When I say NO Tomatoes I don't in any way mean Extra Tomatoes. This happens almost every time I go out to eat.

6. Screaming at Children.....Don't scream at your children in public. You look like a fool and its not really helping the situation now is it?

7. Tapping on my Desk......STOP ALREADY! I cant stand it when everyone who works here thinks that they have to tap or slap or bang on my desk as they walk by. Keep your hands to yourself! Especially when I have a migraine!

8. My Hands......I cant STAND it if my hands are sticky, dirty or dry. It make me want to scream.

9. Nosey Neighbors.....Why do they always have to stare every single time I step outside. I could be going to my car, or throwing trash out, it don't matter cause everything I do I have eyes watching me from across the street. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS! I don't watch you people, cause I don't care what your doing.

10. Sitting close to the bathroom.......Where I sit I can hear the going ons in the bathroom! EWWWWW! I so don't want to know your bathroom problems.

11. Check out Lanes.....Just because I'm buying dog food doesn't mean I want to know about your dog eats. I don't care.

12. People who say, "You never call me".....Ummm maybe cause I don't want to talk to you, have you ever thought of that. Of course not.

13. People who think they know all about me.......Wrong. You don't.

14. Being tossed aside.....Every time you get a girlfriend doesn't mean you have the right to toss me out of your over and over. One day I might actually get tired of the way you treat me. I'm supposed to be your BF. Well start acting like you care and that you want me around.

15. Blocking FB.....That doesn't just annoy me, it pisses me off. Either give me work to do or unblock FB.

16. Obama....Just the name annoys me...

17. "Can I help you find anything".....I hate hearing that. They don't have to say it, I never did. When I need help, I'll be sure to let you know.

18. Greeting people....In church when its that time to stand up and shake people hands. I hate that part.

19. Loud Music.....I must be getting old. I cant stand it when there is that stupid loud bumping music being played as loud as it can be played. I don't care to know what your listening to either if your in the car next to me or in the neighborhood. If it happens in the neighborhood, well I'm that person who is always calling the police or the Land Lady.

20. Guitar Playing.......I absolutely hate it when my husband plays his guitar. I hate it. It makes me want to scream...wait I do usually scream.

Hate

Its Monday. I hate Mondays.
I always toss and turn the night before and don't get any sleep and then I spend most of Monday in a eyes half open kind of way.
Its also the start of a new work week...o goody, work.
I hate work too, by the way.

Gas Problems

O the morning I have had so far!
I left home early this morning because I had to get gas...or I would have never made it to work. (I seem to live life on the edge by not getting gas until the very last second)
Anyways....I passed one gas station so I could go to another. Well I get out, put my card in and the little screen asked for my zip code...OK not a problem. So I typed it in..and the little thing read back to me...."to many numbers." WHAT THE CRAP! So I decided to try again, same thing happened again. So then I tried using another zip code (our zip code was changed). Still the same thing. WHAT! I put in 5 numbers, that's not to many! Well needless to say, I left.
I drove back to the gas station that I had passed. I stick my card in...it reads "insert card" so I did...same thing it reads again. After the third time I gave up and decided to walk inside the station. She runs my card and then I walk back out to pump the gas. And surprise! Still no gas. It wont pump..nothing is happening. I walk back inside...the lady is stocking shelves. I say to her...hey the gas pump isn't working. "O I forgot to push the button", she says. NICE!
I finally got gas. Sure did take a lot of trouble to get it.
I hate having to get gas!!

Enraged

I have sitting here and clicking on "Next Blog" and reading random blogs. And I'm shocked and pissed off at this one I saw :http://bulimiablogger.blogspot.com/2008/11/bulimia-tips.html

It makes me sick! Why the heck would someone post tips? I mean COME ON!! I'm really upset over this.

Don't write tips! Do not tell people how to do this horrible thing that we do to ourselves. You should be ashamed. Do you want other people to go through this. I know I don't. I wouldn't wish this on anybody.

I want my control back. I want to be able to eat and not immediately think, "OMG I have to get rid of this now" It controls my life and I want that control back.

But posting tips and giving people ideas is absurd. WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?!

Just because "ITS" destroying your life doesn't mean you need to aid in helping "IT" destroy another life.

Why?

Here are some things I noticed on my way to work this morning:

Why do people put stuff animals in the back windows of their car? Why? Nobody cares about your stuff animal collection, leave it at home.

Why the heck is the liquor store open at 7:30 am? Never mind, I do know. People get some help.

Why does the sun always blind me in the morning and in the afternoon? Another reason why I prefer rainy days.

Why the heck was that man looking down at the passenger seat instead of on the road this morning? I mean come on, you where on the freeway not the service road...even though that doesn't really matter. Focus man, focus!

Why did that girl keep looking at me through her side mirror? Hey girl the road is in front of you, pay attention.

Why was that one car speeding by everyone on the freeway? Emergency ...maybe. Going to be late for work...probably.

Why wasn't that cop sitting in his usually spot this morning? Maybe he chased someone or better yet he got caught in the long line at the donut shop.

Why didn't that car let that big truck turn so that the lane I was in could start moving? They must have already used their one good deed up for today.

Why was I paying attention to everything around me instead of listening to what Bob was saying on the radio? Because I was busy entertaining myself with the ways of other people's doings.

FAIL

What in the world. Why the heck did Obama appear on the Night Show for? Umm shouldn't he be doing more important things. I mean COME ON! Just so you know, Obama you are not a celebrity, you are the President.

"As much as President Obama would like to be a man of the people, a 'regular guy,' he's not anymore. . . . Doing Jay Leno lessens the stature of the office." -TINA DAUNT
(I agree)

I wonder what show he will show up on next? Probably Oprah.

Another reason I'm glad that I didn't vote for him.

About Time

I thought about it and thought about it...and finally I've decided to have a blog. I need one where I can rant and rave...and nobody (husbands family) reads it and freaks out. Kinda like they do when they somehow read the blogs I post on myspace. MIND YOUR OWN BUSINESS.